Over the past few years I’ve been struggling with a sluggish thyroid, or hypothyroidism, as well as major adrenal fatigue. However, for the longest time I had no idea that was my problem. Initially I thought my weight gain, exhaustion, non existent libido, and overall feeling of being overwhelmed was due to the fact that I was in my late 30s, I was a new Mom, I had started a couple new businesses….oh right, and I was a wife somewhere in there. It was a lot, so it made sense to me that I was feeling run down. I thought what I was going through was entirely situational and convinced myself that it would pass when my daughter got older, or when things calmed down with the businesses, etc. The reality is when you ignore the signs that something is wrong things will escalate, so throw in some friend/family drama, financial set backs, and my husband and I deciding to try for another child. It was crazy making and it all landed with me having an emotional breakdown during a weekend getaway in Fairmont, Indiana. I thought life got the best of me because I just couldn’t handle it anymore.
During that breakdown I remembered something my husband, Scott had said to me a few times over the past year that made me look at things a little differently. Specifically referring to my lack of sex drive he had said, “I know what’s happening. You just don’t find me attractive anymore”. The thing was I DID find him attractive. That had never changed…and still hasn’t to this day, but what was wrong with me? At the beginning of our relationship I had initiated sex more than he did but there had been a shift at some point and it no longer crossed my mind. I didn’t think about it anymore, ever. So was it just the stress of life that was getting to me, or was there also something else going on? That prompted me to do a little research and I realized that many women who were suffering from loss of libido and some other symptoms I had been experiencing had the Mirena IUD. I was using the same IUD so I thought it best to have it removed but to also talk to someone about everything else I had been going through. Maybe it wasn’t situational at all. I was referred to Dr. Shari Caplan and Dr. Daria Love, promptly had my IUD removed, took a number of tests, and now I am on a journey to balance my body. I finally have the proper support for my thyroid and my adrenals, my blood work and vitamin/mineral levels are being checked regularly, and I feel a lot more stable.
I still have at least 10 lbs that I feel I’m in a clingy relationship with, truthfully my sex drive is slightly better at best, I’m frequently scattered and stressed, and I just don’t feel right. Then to top it all off, for the past 10 days I’ve been covered in hives! I’m seriously done with struggling with my health & wellness so I’m giving myself a six month challenge to try and improve it to the point where I feel good about myself again. My Doctors helped to release me from a dark place, and I’m forever grateful, but I know the next step is for me to shift how I take responsibility of my own self care, create some new results and take my health & wellness to the next level.
So all this to say that my challenge over the next six months is to:
1. Practise yoga every single day, even if it’s only for 5 minutes. #YogaEveryDamnDay
2. To charge up my sex life with my husband by consciously creating more intimate moments & initiating in more sex.
3. To cut out all alcohol. I love my wine in the evenings or with friends but it’s making me feel sluggish the next day & it’s definitely not helping me lose the extra weight.
I want to shape this so it’s challenging of course, but also attainable. Incorporating more yoga and intimacy into my life, and cutting out the booze for a while will boost the overall health of my mind, body & spirit. I’m confident in that, but I suppose only time will tell.
Today is Sept 1st 2015, so I will blog about my experience over the next six months and on Leap Day Feb 29th 2016 I’ll reflect on what was the most challenging, the most rewarding, and overall what the journey taught me.
This is Day 1. Wish me luck!!